There are good days, when the sun is shining, the world feels happy, everything is going your way and you feel like nothing can stop you from achieving your dreams.
Then there are bad days, when the world feels grey and gloomy, nothing is going your way and you feel like the whole universe is conspiring against you to ensure you give up.
And then there are worse days. The days where you aren’t optimistic, you aren’t completely pessimistic, nothing is wrong, but you feel like everything is wrong, and you just don’t feel like yourself.
The days where you just don’t feel like it.
These days as especially weird. It’s not like you are having a really bad day, or you are facing problem after problem. Your mind isn’t exactly cluttered with pressing deadlines, nor is it free to relax and just be. You feel unlike yourself, your thoughts turn pensive, your mood is blue and you just don’t know what the heck the matter is. But you just don’t feel like it.
You don’t feel like going to work, you don’t feel like exercising, and it just doesn’t apply to the things you don’t especially enjoy. You don’t feel like watching your favorite TV show, or reading your book. Or calling your best friend.
You just don’t feel like it.
And you don’t know why.
What comes next? As you sit there, listlessly sipping on your tea at work, observing the crazy hustle and bustle of people as they walk on by, you begin to question.
You question the job you are in, and if this is the right career for you, if you heading towards success, are you doing enough with your time, or maybe if it’s time to move on. But, nothing is wrong with your job. You like the people you work with, you like the work you do, you like your environment and your projects. So your mind is in paradox, why fix something that isn’t broken?
Then you turn to your choice in entertainment. Why doesn’t this TV show, which you have been hooked on for weeks, not interest you today? Why did it interest you in the first place? Is your selection in movies and books immature and pointless? Is that the reason why you can’t place your emotions today? Can in be the reason why you are the way you are right now? The right things are not influencing you correctly. Maybe it’s time to switch your thought processes with the matter you absorb.
Maybe tomorrow will be better and you are just overthinking all of this.
And for God’s sake, NO, it is NOT PMS.
Now why am I writing this?
Because I have been having one of those days. And initially I thought it might be the Monday blues. But I don’t have a solid reason to get the Monday blues. Yes, everyone would love a longer weekend, but I really didn’t have a reason to not want to come to work. So that can’t be it.
And as much as you tell yourself to snap out of it, stop being so overdramatic, and just plain stop. You can’t stop. Because you need to know what’s going on to stop. And clearly, you have no clue to what’s going on with you in the first place.
So what do you do?
Well, instead of pressuring yourself to make this feeling go away, you allow yourself to lapse into the mood. Give yourself the time, and tell yourself, ohkay it’s just a weird feeling type of day, I will be perfectly fine tomorrow. And make it a point to stick to it. Allow yourself that slot to feel the way you do, with the promise that you will function better tomorrow and leave it at that. But be sure to Stick. To. It.
Drink a good cup of tea. Yeah, the ones with sugar and milk if you have to.
Socialize even if it’s the last thing you want to do. Talk to someone so you won’t constantly lapse into your own confusing thoughts.
Make someone’s day. I picked up pizza for the fam and offered the cab driver a slice because we were stuck in hideous traffic.
Dress well. Yes, even if you haven’t shaved or done your eyebrows.
Be happy for someone else.
Get out that gratefulness list and make it longer.
Introspect. Be mindful.
Eat something really yummy.
Watching something really funny.
Try to write rhymes that runny.
Ohkay, maybe not the last one.
In contrast to what I said above, don’t give yourself too much space. It’s ohkay to feel the way you do, but don’t make a habit out of it. Because then you are just telling your mind that it’s ohkay to lapse into this mood more often. And it’s not ohkay to do that.
Finally and most importantly, let it out in a way you know best.
I just did.
May you always feel like it,