So 2018 comes to an end in less than 48 hours and I’m sitting in my usual weekend coffee-shop trying to condense my content list of 2018 so this piece doesn’t turn into a bajillion words and I don’t sound like my 2018 was perfect.
Because reality check it was far from it.
In the last month itself, I have broken my beloved phone of 5 years (#RIPXperiaZ) and also fought with the official Sony showroom for a new phone that was given back since it was defective. My new phone ETA is still undecided so I’m walking around with a phablet (please tell me you know what this is) with people going:
“It’s a what?”
“A phone and tablet (Samsung Galaxy Tab 4)”
“Wow it’s as big as your face.”
“Well, yeah it’s a spare phone…”
“It’s as big as this book!”
“Yes, well I didn’t have an option.”
“But. Its. SO. BIG.”
And then I got my glasses stolen by monkeys.
Please just… don’t ask.
Of course, aside from it all, I got the side of my foot cut open (twice) and then skipped the gym for 2 whole months to recover. So ta-da!
How exciting has my 2018 been so far!
Ohkay in all seriousness though I wasn’t expecting to start off this piece by calling out all the bad things that have happened to me. A lot of amazing, wonderful, out-of-this-world, fantastic things have happened to me too.
If 2017 was the year of re-self-discovery, then 2018 was the year of finding a new stem to grow from the same seed. It was the year of learning to appreciate the small stuff, learning to be comfortable in your own skin, exploring new sides to yourself and finally, learning to apply makeup without looking like a palette exploded on your face.
2018 was definitely the year of infinite possibilities. But more than that it was letting the universe decide and just trying to be.
So instead of me just telling you about my 2018 and what it was for me, let me also just show you.
This year was big for me and anime. I saw what could possibly be the most poetically emotive animes back to back
Your Lie In April or Shigatsuwa Kimi No Uso was so heart wearingly beautiful, I had to write a post on it, and it slowly became my most popular piece of this year!
That firefly scene hits me every single time!
And of course, I finally saw Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood and now I know what it’s so highly rated and critically acclaimed and why my brother has been trying to get me to watch this for a long, long time.
It is such a smart anime, and cleverly crafted too. If you haven’t seen it, you really need to. Especially if you’re into dark fantasy, action/adventure and sci-fi.
Here is my favorite quote from the series:
“Sacrifices are necessary. You can't gain anything without losing something first. Although, if you can endure that pain and walk away from it, you will find that you now have a heart strong enough to overcome any obstacle.
A heart made full metal.”
(I’m not crying, you are)
Finding a voice for this blog
It may not look like it, but I think this year (or last) I finally figured out what I want to do with this blog. I am not sure if I have mentioned this before, but it took me a while to figure things out with regards to the tone of my pieces. I know what I wanted to say, but I didn’t know how to say it. And instead of breaking my head over trying to find a unique voice, I just decided to write as best as I could with what felt right and just see how it went. As it turns out, my pieces just became an extension of my own voice.
After which someone told me I can ‘hear’ you in your blog pieces, as if you were saying them to me in person. And I couldn’t think of a compliment that better cemented how comfortable I became whilst writing my articles.
So hey you! Can you hear me? Hi!
Speaking of articles, I wrote a total of 10 (including this) pieces this year.
Aside from anime, this was my other favorite piece of the year: My freaking-tastic birthday!
And my workshop which was a whole new amazing roller-coaster that I hope to do more of next year!
And of course, this gorgeous wedding I went to which got me so much love, I was smiling ear to ear when this piece went live.
Books, books, books!
If you have seen my instagram and click here for shameless plug, thank you- I made a highlight to capture all the books I have read this year and I totalled to –drum rolls please- 18 (now 21) which is not a lot considering almost all my IG stories are of what I’m currently reading. But I read BIG books this year ohkay? And a lot of them were really nice.
But favorites have to be:
A Man Called Ove by Fredrick Backman and I intend to read many more books by him in 2019. (Should I do a what’s on my reading list for 2019? Yes? Yes.) Also my IG caption for this book was: Sometimes the universe sends you books just when it thinks you may need them. And this book couldn't have come to me at a better time; so clearly this year’s theme was already falling into place.
My favorite quote in this book would have to be:
“To love someone is like moving into a house," Sonja used to say. "At first you fall in love in everything new, you wonder every morning that this is one's own, as if they are afraid that someone will suddenly come tumbling through the door and say that there has been a serious mistake and that it simply was not meant to would live so fine. But as the years go by, the facade worn, the wood cracks here and there, and you start to love this house not so much for all the ways it is perfect in that for all the ways it is not. You become familiar with all its nooks and crannies. How to avoid that the key gets stuck in the lock if it is cold outside. Which floorboards have some give when you step on them, and exactly how to open the doors for them not to creak. That's it, all the little secrets that make it your home.”
I would love to put Queen of Air and Darkness and the entire Dark Artifices series by Cassandra Clare but I am still reading the last book so it might be into my 2019 list! (Julian Blackthorn fo lyfe!)
All the fun
So this year wasn’t that big for cosplay, but I finally did a character I have been meaning to do for a loooong time.
Also, on a side note, do I look like Yamcha to you? I was trying to be Goku.
Picture credits: Deepten (a.k.a the future videographer of my non-existant Youtube channel)
To fun adventures and bunny obsessions
To trips with the best friend and memories made with Gelusil (digestive medicine)
To family trips that makes everything so much more fun!
To the completion of not one, but TWO whole books on Wattpad. (And edited, Boo-yeah!)
I dreamed a little bit more this year. I made plans and stuck to some, just to forget the others. I made promised to myself and excused myself when they didn’t happen. I openly declared that I felt like I was wasting my time, whereas I just realized that I needed to have shorter goals that made me feel like I was working up to something as opposed to longer, bigger goals like getting mistaken for a model. (Which I did btw! Ha!)
2018 was as extraordinary as it was ordinary. I spent waaaay too many times at my favorite coffee shops to write, to reflect to reminisce and to dream.
I skipped out on some forced social events just to sit at home and finish a book with a cup of Swiss Miss hot chocolate. I realized that I don’t need to do something big and out of this world to feel important or feel like I am utilizing my life’s purpose (at least not all the time :P). I can do something meaningful by cooking and helping around the house. Taking the pressure off from someone at work. Text someone having a bad day and being there for them. Just be, remember?
And as closer as I get to 28, normally girls my age would just freak out over not having this validating things checked off their list, but I’m taking my life one ordinary day, made extraordinary with the small things, at a time.
It gave me a little clarity on the art of simplicity. And how complicated we sometimes make our own lives, where everything you may need at present, is right in front of you.
(Do I sound all philosophical-buddhist-monk-where-my-om-at to you? Awesome. I started listening to a lot of gorgeous chillstep this year too)
So, to a year that was and to the year that will be. Thank you for teaching me to a little bit simpler, a little but more humble and a whole lot more grateful.
For 2019, I hope you are nothing short of pure magic. Of course, couple with a few more sprinkles of success. But more than anything, I hope you are as extraordinary as I will make it.
And I have a feeling I am really going to make it.
Will Niki finally make a career out of blogging? Will she start her Youtube channel? Will she finally lose that chubby weight she’s been promising for 3 years? And finally, will she finally stop making everything sound so dramatic?
Stay tuned to the next episode of DaysOfRainAndSummer to find out!
See you in 2019!